I want less material things for Christmas than I usually do. Take it as a sign of maturity, if you will, or as one of the positive effects of such drastic changes in my life blahbittyblah (yeah, I went through something etc etc, but that's not important now). I am now armed with a brand new perspective! Life really does start at 21. It has thrown me a couple of lemons and a million curveballs, or maybe that's just the drama queen in me talking. But anyway, I'm glad to be rid of the main source of my life's drama once and for all. I've been a glum kid all my life and if you knew the whole story, you'd understand why. Now it feels like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. It's also a bit scary to have so much control, but I wouldn't want it any other way.
Now, onto my list! PLANE TICKETS TO ALASKA First of all, I would really like to go to Alaska within the next five years. This fantasy of mine started a couple of years ago when I purchased a back issue of Condé Nast's Traveler with a feature on Anchorage. There was a photo of a group of friends in swimsuits, in a hot spring, surrounded by snow and trees and mountains. It looked amazing! MCSWEENEY'S SUBSCRIPTION I enjoy looking for them and buying them on my own, but it would be nice to have new issues just waiting for me at my doorstep for a change. It would feel like Christmas morning every time a new one arrives! PRODUCTIVITY Partly why 2011 sucked: I accomplished nothing! I finished film school then just stopped moving or doing anything. I wasn't even tired or anything, I just stopped. ABILITY TO FORGIVE the ones who should be forgiven. PEACE OF MIND, POSITIVITY, CONTENTMENT for me and my family.
There are also a couple of other things like ride a roller coaster again and prove to myself that it wasn't just a one time thing to prove to my cousins that I wasn't a wuss, take a backpacking trip with friends to Europe, LEARN HOW TO DRIVE, and maybe attend a music festival and just let go. 2011 may not have worked out well, but I can still choose to take control of 2012. I mean, I have to. Right?