I missed you so

Well, it took a whole night of Tumblr downtime just for me to get back here. Which I understand is quite sad and a bit telling of how my focus tends to shift from one thing to another. I once so unbelievably believed that I could maintain both this WordPress blog for longer, more elaborate entries and my Tumblr for the shorter, more mundane thoughts. I ended up dumping everything in there and on Twitter, too. Internet, you complicate my life.

Anyway. Big things are about to happen. First, my online magazine (Witness Our Youth) is about to officially launch on August 14. And if you think about it, August 14 is not that far away. I honestly haven't finished the whole magazine layout because I have been juggling it along with other things I have to do such as my real, paying work and my documents for film school. My paycheck will go straight to the WOY launch anyway so what the heck. I have so many things to lament about.

The launch planning and magazine completion of WOY aren't going as smoothly as I would like them to. The reason is because I am doing both on my own. I've tried begging for help via SMS, but I've been ignored. Le sigh. The little help I've gotten so far came from friends who were just plain concerned and nice --- Carina, Mikki, Adi, Toby, my mom--- and I'm really glad they're there for me when I'm feeling a little too down. Perhaps, I was meant to experience this kind of difficulty to realize what I'm capable of and what I'm not. The WOY launch is my first event ever and if it goes well, maybe there'll be a second? If it fails, then.. I don't even want to think about it. But a really huge part of me thinks it will succeed because of my good friends who never fail to support. And now I refuse to get anymore melodramatic.

Second, I'm leaving in a few months for film school and I'm feeling quite uneasy/nervous. I don't want to end up spending a crazy amount of money for nothing so I'm really trying to prepare for it as much as I can. I've been writing short scripts and taking down notes whenever ideas strike and it's really good practice. I think I'm going to keep doing this even after film school.

Not that interesting, right?

These are the latest things in my life right now that I'm trying to deal with. I hope I come out of these gracefully and with no regrets.